Today I woke up in a bad mood. It was probably because I was going to school again and I had work right after that. The first thing I did after i woke up was hit the snooze button which was frustraiting to me because I was trying not to do that this morning yet I did. I took a shower in which there is never enough time to spend in there. My dad was home from work and he was in a good mood. Someone in a good mood is the greatest annoyance to someone in a bad mood. He called me from up stairs to take my underwear out of the bathroom that I had left in there from my shower. It was a valid command, but annoyed me all the more. Right before I left to get on with my already very disapointing day, I was told that I owed my parents $85, which of course was true. Then I was told to pay the shell bill, which I keep forgetting to do because it isn't in my name and back in December, I must have used it once or something and I keep paying the minimum due and keep getting late payments put onto the bill becase i don't pay it on time. Blast. I then went to my classes in which I was reminded in my sociology class that we are all addicted to spending, affluenza they called it. It reminded me of how money doesn't make people happy and how people are saving less and buying more. My professor said this in a very cheery, upbeat voice. So annoying. I then realized I was starting to think and act like that phony Holden Caulfield, whom I couldn't stand because he complained so much. God is still good even when He doesn't make sense to me.

Everyone come and see how good I look!

"Without you, what am I to myself but a guide to my own downfall?"

- St. Augustine

What is so special about quoting someone is that you look smart for remembering that someone said something.

The color of the sky today is a blue gray. Well, it's blue right above me but along the horizon, it's more of a gray color like there really are clouds out there but they are too far away for my eyes to make shapes out of them. It's a very crisp day outside as well. Days like this are nearly perfect.

I discovered something today, that I really like the wind. I'm a little suprised that I didn't know this about myself yet. I got out of my car to go into my house but for some reason or another I stopped and walked down to the end of the driveway and let the wind blow in my face. It was nice to do. I've been so stressed out by school and my own failings that I have been weary. The loud rushing noise of the wind as it blew staight into my face made me forget all that and rest in the unseen strength of God. I walked in and made Ramen noodles. I've kinda wondered lately how long it would take someone to die if they ate just Ramen noodles all the time.

People are unique. Working at a bank will make you forget about that very quickly. I think it has to do with money, that it equalizes people in more than two ways. I wish I wasn't so scared of difference, of the uniqueness of people.

The hard labor of community

For those of you who check this, who don't know already and who are in town (so that means probably zero) tonight is the Union at North Central. If you want to know what the Union is click here.

God has still been showing me the need for community within our group. We need to go out of our way to spend time with each other. According to Jesus we need each other. We CANNOT divorce our relationship with Jesus from our relationships with those who follow Jesus. Loving each other starts with being with each other.

Union basic info:

Where: Near the North Central Campus (see link for directions)
When: 5:30 tonight
What: dinner, discussion, worship and prayer
Why: To spend time with each other, to get to know each other and to fellowship

Please spread the word, especially to those who attended the retreat last weekend.