I don't know what I'm talking about

So, I really don't know what I'm talking about. So before I piss anyone off, spark outrage among all my followers (as of right now this is just myself)and completely ostracize myself from those who once called me friend, I must say that most of what I say is made up (in my mind!) and that I am both too lazy and too uniterested to back up what up say with what we call "facts". I really, really don't know what I'm talking about. Although, I pretend I do. You see, at 28 years old (hold on, I have to think about how old I actually am, 27? no 28) I have many thoughts, beliefs and ideas that are well thought out, but nearly all up for debate. You see I have this compulsion to share these things on the internet no less, for anyone and no one to read. But please remember if you do stumble or shamble across this website looking for porn or whatnot that I very much do not know what I am talking about.

Sadness is grace

I've missed my God. It seems so cliche that I would turn to Him in the midst of great hardship and struggle, but here I am. God has been gracious in the midst of my sojourn away from Him. Now I feel lost, trying to find my way back. Not lost in the sense that I can't find God, but lost trying to recover to the place where we were close. No, I can't escape God, no matter how hard I try. He traveled with me, every step no matter where I went. You see, God is not only gracious, but He is also faithful.

I've discovered sadness to be a gift of grace. Sad that I didn't know Him like I used to. Sad that I hurt Him. Sad that my mom has cancer. These griefs are a grace that surround me, encompass me. They are the sun in the morning. And they are also the tears I cry. All grace. Throughout everything my soul screams, "God is good, and powerful and love." It is the power that scares me, because He is so much greater than me. I am afraid and must fight anything greater than myself. So we fought, or rather I stormed out, full tantrum in swing. But now I feel no longer angry, but sad. Which is welcome because it means I still care. God is one. He moves and shifts and courses through but he doesn't change. I've missed God.

Shepherd's Blog and the challenge ahead

Well, it certainly has been awhile since I have written anything on here, and my first blog in a long time is not going to be like what I thought it would. I read part of Shepherd Smith's blog this morning (http://whatjesushasdone.com/blogs/shepsmith/) and was blown away and certainly challenged in my faith. His insistence that we seek Jesus first and not behavior modification was a great reminder for me. So therefore, I want to start blogging again with the intent of (hopefully) showing my walk into a true and sincere faith. One centered on Jesus alone. I am excited and scared at the same time. More to come, but now to work.

Luke

getting things out of the way

Merry Christmas, happy New Year, and happy 3 year anniversary. Done and done.

Hell week has been entered into. Homework sucks. Interim is good. That is all.

I love prisclla deen very much and i am so thankful for her.

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money cannot save
talent cannot save
position cannot save my soul from death
knowledge cannot save
learning cannot save
even wisdom cannot save my soul from death

I will boast in only Jesus Christ
I will boast in only Jesus Christ
to this world I have been crucified
so I will boast in only Jesus Christ

religion cannot save
service cannot save
surely good deeds cannot save my soul from death

preaching cannot save
singing cannot save
no even Scripture cannot save my soul from death

I will boast in only Jesus Christ
I will boast in only Jesus Christ
to this world I have been crucified
so I will boast in only Jesus Christ

Busy

Right not I'm putting off writing a lesson plan for a lesson that I have to give in a little less than two hours. Funny thing is, I'm still not entirely sure how to write a good lesson plan.

Life is good right now. I rarely have time to play video games, play guitar or go shoot my 22 at the range but life it good. I feel productive for the first time in a long time.

It is with this knowledge that i've come to realize how good work actually is, and that God created something hard to be good. How many times to I try to avoid work only ending up up at 5:00 am finishing a paper due at 8 am and thinking to myself, "this would have been a much more enjoyable paper at 5:00 pm yesterday."

But I think I'm doing a little better.

I also wear ties a lot more too.

Today has been very, what's the word for it, blustery, yeah that's it. Blustery days remind me childhood and Winnie the Pooh and going outside and letting the wind hit me in the face in gusts and feeling a little cold but very refreshed.

The earth is such an interesting thing. The class I tought talked about Pangea today. I didn't know quite what to say about how long it took for everything to break apart so I just said millions of years. Is that un-Christian? Oh well. The earth still is very interesting.