When it comes to the end, I want it all to be ok.

As it is my eager expectation and hope that I will not be ashamed but that with full courage now as always Christ will be honored in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me to live is Christ and to die is gain.

Phil 1:20-21

I have that taped up at my workstation at the credit union. I put it there to remind myself to be a witness through my words and actions to point everyone that I come in contact with to Christ. Most of the time I look at that and think about Christ being magnified through my life but through this past week and really this past year I have seen what it means for Christ to be magnified in death.

I don't like the fact that in order to get serious about life something bad has to happen. Why can't I focus on what is important all the time? Why doesn't thankfulness come easy? Complaining flows easily from my lips whereas I have been given much. I can only pray and work to submit myself to the Lord. Behavior modification is weak and does not change hearts and in the end character. I think Lissa put it best when I asked her how she was feeling. She said, "Right now I feel emotionally drained and tired of being here for so long, but when I think of what they must be going through, all those feelings disappear."

To God be the glory great things He hath done!