Curses foiled again!

Winterfest was so-so. I honestly don't know if it is because I am getting burnt out on Jr. High events or if it really was only so-so.

*Quick theological side note: If this weekend didn't seem very spiritually enlightening for either myself or my 8th grade guys what does that actually mean? I was trying to think about this and realized that I was giving into this weird thought that everything is God's plan. Before I get yelled at by Joy and probably several others (but mostly Joy) I am asking this out of mostly an inquisitive nature of God's soveriengty. I know that God has a plan but I've found myself and many of the people I know thinking everything is in God's plan. Like, if something turns out good then it was in God's plan but if something turns out bad then it was also in God's plan. I'm not making much sense. Ugh, I hate being tired. What I mean is this, God will and does withhold blessings. We don't always follow His plan and there might have been something amazing that we could have had had we followed God's will. If this is true then I don't think there is one set plan that God follows. Don't get me wrong I think God is soveriegn and has everything in control but I just don't know. I see God's will as an infinite number of possiblities with only one known outcome by God. Bah, I'm still not making much sense. I would give you references but honestly I don't have them right now. I do know that somewhere in the Bible it talks about God changing His mind by not killing the Israelites or something to that nature. Joy, go ahead attack my weak attempts to grasp God's infinite control over a seemingly uncontrolable series of unknown variables.*


Anyways, not that this was to say that winterfest wasn't in God's will. I think it was and just because I did not see immediate fruit means nothing in God's timing.

For some reason I'm in a somewhat pessimistic mood right now. I can't beleive how many of my friends are getting ready to go to Christian schools. Honestly if I didn't know that I have to trust God I would be somewhat discouraged by this. Not about anyone in particular, i love you all and trust that God has you where He wants you, but i just wish more Christians would go to secular colleges. It was hard to find any firm Christians at North Central. It's kinda like the mission field right now, not many people go into overseas missions because "they don't feel called." Well darn it we were already called by the Great Commission! We should here the opposite, "I don't feel called to stay so I'm going." Maybe I'm oversimplifying things too much. Am I?

I do trust in God though. I know that it is by His grace that we can choose Him to begin with. I would say I'm sorry for this boring post about theology but I'm not. And that would be lying.

Don't you ever wish that you could have the faith of the apostles? I wonder what would happen if I had that kind of faith? I've been reading acts off and on (please pray for my Bible reading that it will continue daily) and I wish our church had the fervor of the first century church. Why can't we just witness to people? Does anyone feel that the terms "well, I planted the seed of Christ in that person," or "I have to wait on God's timing" in regards to us not leading anyone to Christ is getting just a little bit old? I want fruit! I want to see the gospel change lives not just hear about other people do it. And I don't think this is a bad thing or against what the Bible says. Not that everyone we witness to will accept Christ, but I haven't lead anyone to Christ for several years. Several years! It's because I'm not witnessing enough. Peter preached and the Holy Spirit lead 3000 people to come to Christ in one day! That was faith not anything Peter did! Where is my faith? Where is our faith? Why can I not start speaking about what I've seen and heard? I keep waiting for the "perfect witnessing opporitunity". Right. One thing I do know is that I love the Lord Jesus and that I will do better. I have to. We all have to. Ugh I need sleep.